i write lyrics, not poetry

c'est la vie

2009-12-19T09:09:00.000-08:00

today i closed a chapter of my life. how do i feel? numb.

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2009-12-16T04:47:00.000-08:00

I wanna thank you for the pain,
Thanks for the love you never gave,
For all the hugs covered with lies
And for an end with no good bye.

bits and pieces

2009-10-29T17:09:00.000-07:00

I was dreaming you will make me fly
I was hoping you wont make me cry
Always waiting for a pretty smile
Never ready for a cruel goodbye.

D END

2009-02-09T04:20:00.000-08:00

Im throwing all the memories
Wishing I never met you in this life
Hoping to get over the pain and sorrow
Blurring your image in my mind.

Your kisses were the biggest lie
And all the smiles were never just for me
I was naive and now i’m paying
While you are playing with another fool.

Tonight I cried the last time over you
Cant stand to be pathetic one more day
I learnt a lesson and it was the hard way
But now I’m sure that soon I’ll be OK!

endings

2009-01-19T11:58:00.000-08:00

I didn’t know how to resist
I tried, I failed and now I miss
Yeah, I do miss those bluish eyes
the touches and the candid smiles.

So many things I didn’t tell
and all the dreams burnt in this hell..
I know in time I will be fine
Though I will die inside, with pride.

Its just too sad you’ll never know
Or if you will, you’ll never show.
Try to be careful with your heart
Don’t lose it bleeding in the dark.

bits and pieces

2009-01-08T15:56:00.001-08:00

i wonder if your heart can feel
or is it love something surreal?
you promised nothing yet i thought i felt
your blue eyes ..feeling sorry when i left.
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you were part of my world but not for long,
you removed yourself kindly and yet painfully..

mixed emotions

2009-01-04T05:49:00.000-08:00

it started simple, nice and true
looking for smiles, chatting a few
then all the good things disappeared
a storm of feelings much too weird.

i just dont wanna fall in love
when loving you it feels so wrong
i struggle with myself and cry
trying to cool my heart this time

my days no longer start with sun
loving is good but not this time
you need the freedom, i need peace
let me forget you, i need this.

Bitter Sweet Melody

2009-01-04T05:46:00.000-08:00

Sweet torture, words unwritten
Bitter feelings, love not given.
If I could rip this thoughts apart
Wish I could change dark into light.

I’m not yours and I want it too bad
You’re not mine and it makes me so sad.
Don’t tell me things you’ll never do
Is not enough to crave for you

Empty places, heart is broken
Fragile faces, life unspoken.
No one can change the nothingness
Until you come and give the best.

epilog

2009-01-04T05:34:00.000-08:00

Mi-ai dat prea multe sperante desarte
Tot ce mi-ai spus nu m-a dus prea departe
N-ai inteles nimik din iubire
Si-ai sa ramai o banala amintire.

Povestea s-a terminat pt noi
Poate ca vina se imparte la doi
Dar si sfarsitul poate fi inceput
Daca durerea ce-a fost, a trecut.

Te uit pe tine ca sa nu uit de mine
Zambesc de azi ca sa pot rade maine
Nu te mai las sa ma dai la o parte
Am sa dau eu pagina, mai departe.

Mi-ai promis multe dar mult prea putine
Nu ai crezut ca traiesc fara tine
Poate vei invatza sa iubesti
Insa pe alta, eu stiu cine esti.

few words, maybe a higher bpm :)

2009-01-02T13:20:00.001-08:00

My life is empty
My days are mad
My eyes are crying
My heart feels sad.

I want to call u
I want to speak
You keep the distance
You make me weak

My love's not given
My tears wont dry
My heart is waiting
But you wont try.

untitled

2009-01-02T13:17:00.000-08:00

Your eyes that kill a thousand smiles,
My grief that’s caused by many lies,
The others so good at pretending,
The world that’s always too demanding.

How can you tell me nothings real
When you cant see and you cant feel?
Why do you judge me without knowing
Leaving me speechless while u’r going?

My dreams that make my life worth living
Your hands too cold to warm my feelings.
The game of losing, many players
Standing so helpless, no more prayer.

happy vibes

2009-01-02T13:13:00.001-08:00

Let music be the soundtrack of your life
Play with the colors of the rainbow in your heart
Ride with the wind and try to catch the fire
Kiss happiness and u will live forever.

Live all your days like there is no tomorrow
Dance in the moonlight with the passion not the sorrow
Kiss life and music and you’ll touch the sky
Be wild and u wont waste a second of your time.

goodbye

2009-01-02T13:11:00.000-08:00

You gave me pieces of a dream
A story that will never happen
You made me fly and broke my wings
Without regretting after..

What sort of game u had in mind?
Was it so nice to hurt my feelings?
How come your love faded so quick
And your “forever” vanished?

The story ends from the beginning
It wasn’t meant and we both feel it.
One last request: delete the memories
Don't wanna be another folder on your CDs.

me against the world

2009-01-02T13:00:00.000-08:00

you're such a poor and empty soul 
trying to much to have it all,
 too low to own some dignity 
hurting and pushing constantly. 
where do you wanna go my friend? 
why hurry.. when you know the end?
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i feel like screaming, crying, praying
 then question God for what He's doing.
 i want to break the world in pieces 
then kill myself and all the species.
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you always hurt me with your words
 some wicked pleasure fills your soul
 go on and laugh, while i sit crying
 enjoy your lies while i start dying.
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If I could end it now, today
 I won’t regret it anyway 
The world is crazy, people too
 Everything fades and so will u.